Annoying

Things are getting better and more stable. But it wasn't like this in the beginning. Let me recount what happened while at KK. That same day after delivery. In the middle of the night at about3 am the nurses in the nursery saw that Mathias seemed to be having difficulties in breathing. So she called for the doctor. Doctor came and decided to send him down to the Special Care Nursery to be doubly sure. They can monitor the heartbeat, air intake and blah blah blah with a special monitor. Plus there are more experienced nurses there as well.

They said that they came by to see me cause the doctor wanted to tell me the news personally but I was sleeping. Obviously I was since I hardly slept for the past few days and I just delivered. Duh!! Anyways, he decided to NOT wake me up. Cause he was worried that I would not be able to sleep at all after that so they left me alone. The doctor told the nurses that he would tell me the news personally so they didn't have to do it.

I woke up not knowing that my baby was no longer in the nursery. I went over at 8.30am wanting to push him to my room but was told by the nurse on duty that he was having his milk. That's after telling them my room number and NAME!!!! I am dam pissed. You will know why later. Anyways, I went back to wait as she said that they will send him over once he is done. And she promised to teach me how to breast feed him properly as I mentioned that I haven't started producing milk yet at that point.

So wait wait..... come 9plus, "A" and his mother arrives, we decide to go over to see if he is done already. Got there and was told that the doctor is making his rounds so babies have to stay in. Ok lor. Wait somemore. 10 plus after attending the demonstration on how to bath baby I popped over again. Told the same thing. Doctor still doing rounds. Dam long hor.

No choice, went back to my room to wait. That's when someone from the admissions department came to look for us asking us when our baby was sent to the Special Care Nursery. We went like WHAT??? No, our baby is in the nursery. He was never in the Special Care Nursery not even just after birth. She gave us a confused look and we we confused too. She said never mind, she will go find out. At this point my husband decided to go check again. AND thats when we found out that my baby is not in the NURSERY!!!!! Wat the.......

I started to get upset and anxious. How not to. My baby leh. "A" started getting really agitated. Told the nurse that we wanted to speak with the relevant parties. So in the end, the nurse manager came to my room. She mentioned that the doctor was on his way up. But then she started to say things like, calm down, I got something to tell you at the same time patting me. Ok, lets pause here. When someone does that to you, you can only think of bad things happening or have happened. Wrong tactic. The mama started to panic as in really panic. Here I am unsure of what is happening to my baby and how is he faring and someone doing that to me......I obviously started boo hooing....

They couldn't give me anything conclusive and how is baby now causing even more distress for me. Even my mother in law started crying too. Eventually the doctor came and apologized. He said that he wanted to let me know personally but he was called to attend to another emergency hence the LATE LATE delay. Again wat the........

In the end we went down to see what is happening to my baby and found that he was in the x-ray room. Gotta wait. I tell you. It felt dam long and I was starting to feel depressed. So worried about my little boy. Prayed like mad then.

After much fan fare, I managed to see him and ensure that he is ok. But according to KK they wanted to rule out any issue so they want all the experts and consultants to see him. Example the heart, bone, genetic specialist. Plastic surgeon, speech theraphy blah blah blah as they found that his wrist and feet seem to be clenched tightly. Just to rule out any other issue la so they said. Therefore they kept my baby in the hospital for 5 days. I left after 2 although I was supposed to leave after 1 day. My doctor Han said that its ok for me to stay another day in this case and he knew I was anxious.

Baby's doing well now. Am so pissed with KK. Everyday that we went down, no one could give us a conclusive answer. Consultant not down yet. Dunno the results. Dunno when baby can be released. Don't they know the mama is going mad with worry while they sit on their asses. Mama can't leave the house. Confinement month la. I went one of the evenings and I started sneezing immediately after that. So was confined after that. Haha....actually not supposed to leave the house. I have to cover up every inch of skin and use a scarf to cover my head. Cannot expose myself to the wind.

I am just happy to say that baby is ok now. His wrist and feet have a little cramping up. Its very mild. Needs a little Physio. Think he was very cramped in mama's tummy. He is very long. Arms and legs are long so maybe no space for him to stretch and he got so used to it. Anyways, his wrist look better already. Almost usual. He keeps keeping his legs though. I keep telling him that he can stretch. That he is not in mama's tummy anymore. ;-)

Oh but he is so cute. The little cutie. ;-)

Ok enough for now. Restie the eyes. Will post more again.