I cut the line

I gave up today. Just couldn't do it anymore. Enough of the pep talk everyday that I give myself. Can't live with the stress anymore. Will just look for something else. Before this all lead to more health problems for me. Sigh.

I do feel a little lousy for giving up but for the sanity of my own mind, I will do it. Not that I didn't give myself many chances but I can't seem to relax. Wasn't able to sleep last night too..and I still woke up at 5 am as usual. Sucks. I fear going in to work even. Don't like that feeling. Not good for the soul.

So will be looking for a job. Shouldn't be too difficult I hope.