1st month celebration

Had Baby Mathias's 1 month celebration today. It was a rowdy affair. So many people and the noise level was horrendous. :-)

Received many pressies even after telling them all not to buy any. Hehehe..... trying to find space to keep all of them. Little baby is sleeping in the room while I type this. Dada has gone to work. Poor thing. I will also work later. Feed baby through the night. Hahaha......

Am feeling much happier already. Luckily not hit by the bad case of post natal blues. Was just a little bit depressed thats all. Am happy again. "A" sneaked me out for a movie last Monday. Felt so much better after the outing and Batman was awesome. Going back to my house tomorrow evening. ;-)

Tues would see me going to the polyclinic with baby then its to the hairdresser's. Can't wait. Happy happy. After that its Sushi Tei with the girls. Looking forward to sashimi. Yum yum.....

All in all I am good once more.

Annoying

Things are getting better and more stable. But it wasn't like this in the beginning. Let me recount what happened while at KK. That same day after delivery. In the middle of the night at about3 am the nurses in the nursery saw that Mathias seemed to be having difficulties in breathing. So she called for the doctor. Doctor came and decided to send him down to the Special Care Nursery to be doubly sure. They can monitor the heartbeat, air intake and blah blah blah with a special monitor. Plus there are more experienced nurses there as well.

They said that they came by to see me cause the doctor wanted to tell me the news personally but I was sleeping. Obviously I was since I hardly slept for the past few days and I just delivered. Duh!! Anyways, he decided to NOT wake me up. Cause he was worried that I would not be able to sleep at all after that so they left me alone. The doctor told the nurses that he would tell me the news personally so they didn't have to do it.

I woke up not knowing that my baby was no longer in the nursery. I went over at 8.30am wanting to push him to my room but was told by the nurse on duty that he was having his milk. That's after telling them my room number and NAME!!!! I am dam pissed. You will know why later. Anyways, I went back to wait as she said that they will send him over once he is done. And she promised to teach me how to breast feed him properly as I mentioned that I haven't started producing milk yet at that point.

So wait wait..... come 9plus, "A" and his mother arrives, we decide to go over to see if he is done already. Got there and was told that the doctor is making his rounds so babies have to stay in. Ok lor. Wait somemore. 10 plus after attending the demonstration on how to bath baby I popped over again. Told the same thing. Doctor still doing rounds. Dam long hor.

No choice, went back to my room to wait. That's when someone from the admissions department came to look for us asking us when our baby was sent to the Special Care Nursery. We went like WHAT??? No, our baby is in the nursery. He was never in the Special Care Nursery not even just after birth. She gave us a confused look and we we confused too. She said never mind, she will go find out. At this point my husband decided to go check again. AND thats when we found out that my baby is not in the NURSERY!!!!! Wat the.......

I started to get upset and anxious. How not to. My baby leh. "A" started getting really agitated. Told the nurse that we wanted to speak with the relevant parties. So in the end, the nurse manager came to my room. She mentioned that the doctor was on his way up. But then she started to say things like, calm down, I got something to tell you at the same time patting me. Ok, lets pause here. When someone does that to you, you can only think of bad things happening or have happened. Wrong tactic. The mama started to panic as in really panic. Here I am unsure of what is happening to my baby and how is he faring and someone doing that to me......I obviously started boo hooing....

They couldn't give me anything conclusive and how is baby now causing even more distress for me. Even my mother in law started crying too. Eventually the doctor came and apologized. He said that he wanted to let me know personally but he was called to attend to another emergency hence the LATE LATE delay. Again wat the........

In the end we went down to see what is happening to my baby and found that he was in the x-ray room. Gotta wait. I tell you. It felt dam long and I was starting to feel depressed. So worried about my little boy. Prayed like mad then.

After much fan fare, I managed to see him and ensure that he is ok. But according to KK they wanted to rule out any issue so they want all the experts and consultants to see him. Example the heart, bone, genetic specialist. Plastic surgeon, speech theraphy blah blah blah as they found that his wrist and feet seem to be clenched tightly. Just to rule out any other issue la so they said. Therefore they kept my baby in the hospital for 5 days. I left after 2 although I was supposed to leave after 1 day. My doctor Han said that its ok for me to stay another day in this case and he knew I was anxious.

Baby's doing well now. Am so pissed with KK. Everyday that we went down, no one could give us a conclusive answer. Consultant not down yet. Dunno the results. Dunno when baby can be released. Don't they know the mama is going mad with worry while they sit on their asses. Mama can't leave the house. Confinement month la. I went one of the evenings and I started sneezing immediately after that. So was confined after that. Haha....actually not supposed to leave the house. I have to cover up every inch of skin and use a scarf to cover my head. Cannot expose myself to the wind.

I am just happy to say that baby is ok now. His wrist and feet have a little cramping up. Its very mild. Needs a little Physio. Think he was very cramped in mama's tummy. He is very long. Arms and legs are long so maybe no space for him to stretch and he got so used to it. Anyways, his wrist look better already. Almost usual. He keeps keeping his legs though. I keep telling him that he can stretch. That he is not in mama's tummy anymore. ;-)

Oh but he is so cute. The little cutie. ;-)

Ok enough for now. Restie the eyes. Will post more again.

Pictures of "D Day"

Here I am just before admitting myself into KK's delivery ward. It is now 8plus in the morning. Looking nice and happy still yah.















Dada looking all excited and energetic. ;-)




















Anyways, we know it was still not time to deliver yah from my previous entry. Went back home to wait somemore as its only 2cm dilated. Hehe.....

This is another picture of me in the night. This was about 12 midnight. Don't look too good already right. In a lot of PAIN!!!!!! Breathing breathing. Pain coming in spurts of 3 or 5 mins apart. Faint!




















The girls having a good laugh at my expense. Wat the .............See me concentrating. And they enjoying themselves. Bleah!















In the suite now, seriously painful. Contractions coming very close together. Pain until.........

Even bun bun is no comfort.





























Looking happy again after the epidural. Dun feel much of anything by now. Hence the happy smile hor. Chocolates from the girls. Hehe..... Liqeur chocolates. Yummy. Haven't eaten them yet. Will do so soon.















"A" pass!!!















My urine bag. Since I am not allowed to get off the bed as I am belted up I get this instead.















My epidural bag.















A hungry mama. Trying to eat the bao! No food at all ok. Just a drip all night long. No water too just some ice chips.





























The other forms of pain relief. Gas and injection.















I am hooked onto this machine to monitor me and the baby. My contractions and baby's heart beat. That's the belt at my tummy for.




















Look at the time. Sigh....... Still no sign of action. And I was only 5 cm dilated.















Dozing on and off.















Its a waiting game. Look at the many tubes I am attached to.















Getting there...... Slowly dilating to 9cm.















See the poor little bun bun in the corner. Hehe...delivering soon......





























My delivery room. 29....on the 29 July.... and I am 29 yrs old. My doctor and nurse who is looking after me. ;-)















One and only picture of my pushing. "A" was in shock I think cause he didn't take much photos between now till after the baby came out. Hehe...... Anyways, it was pretty fast.




















Time of baby's birth!!!















Here's the little bundle of joy.





























My placenta. ;-D















Baby's first injection.

























































Isn't Mathias cute!!!















My epidural tube.




















Me looking like death warmed over. Vomiting many many times. Dun look good yeps.




















Entry of the delivery suite.




















Mama and baby Mathias.







































The mad people!















Sweetie sleeping.















Someone trying to be maternal. Hehehe....




















The family arriving to see the bundle of joy.















Pnut and bun bun fainting from the smell....hehe...... Will post some more photos soon. Can't stay at the comp for too long. Bad for the eyes. ;-) Will post about what happened at KK too. They made baby stay in the hospital for 5 days before they released him. Poor mama, so traumatised....suck....

The act of pushing

ok...now where did I leave off...... hmmm...oh yes, the pain went on and on till about evening when it got even more intense. By then, it was coming at 3 and 5 mins apart. And the pain was getting even more and more intense. By 11plus, I decided that we should start heading to the hospital. So off we went again. The pain was so bad I was cringing each time it came. But remember, 3 or 5 mins is not much time to recuperate before the next one comes along. Faint faint. Got into the delivery ward. They called my doctor and checked to see how much I was dilated. I was only guess wat?? 4 cm dilated. Someone kill me please. Time to decide what to do? Gas mask? Leg injection? or Epidural? These are the options available to help with the pain. Looking at my situation and already not able to tahan anymore, I opted for the epidural. Why u ask? Let me explain. The gas mask only helps 20% of the pain. Leg injection also dependin on the person might last 30 mins or 3 to 4 hours. I opted for the epidural which I was most adamant about not using cause after a whole day of contraction I was at 4cm only. Which means an improvement of 2cm all day long. Faint. I still had 6cm to go ok.

Reason being that, I took the dreaded thing. "Jea" had a good laugh about it. Cause she knew I was adamant about not taking any pain relief. Sigh...... It really was a relief. Immediate some more. But the effects of the injection came immediately. I felt itchy all over. One of the signs. Some people have it, some don't. It depends. But I was feeling comfortable at last. This peaceful time lasted all the way till morning. At 7.30am they came and checked to see how much I had dilated. Guess what? I dilated to 5cm only. 5cm ONLY OK!!!! Whole night and 1cm improvement. What the!!!!

Lucky I took the epidural. Damn. But then a weird thing happened. At 8 plus the nurse checked me again and realised that I was now 9cm dilated. Whoa what a big change. No wonder I felt like something is pushing to come out. So we started getting ready for the final show. By 9 I was fully dilated and we started pushing. My baby was out at 9.14am. Miracle!!!!!!

I was mostly in shock and awe and yes the dreaded after effects of the epidural. This was why I didn't wanna take it. Bad. I started vomiting just before I gave birth and another 10 times after. Non stop ok. I felt so hung over. Dizzy and nauseaous. Just like after many many shots of tequila. Gross. Dam gross ok. Remember that I had no food all night. Where did so much water come from. No water too. I was on a drip only.

But anyway, I am still happy. Cause my baby is out already. He is soooo cute. Love him so much. Yeps. Oh, another side effect was the fever after that too....sigh...... lucky they went away after a few hours. ;-)