Life is pretty much good for me. I am happy where I am now. Happy with my current job although there are times where I can't stand the politics. My relationship with "A" is also good. Really looking forward to planning for the rest of our lives together. Actually am just waiting for him to pluck up courage to ask my dad for permission.

To be honest, I never expected myself to be where I am now. Looking back, its a far cry from what I felt before. I had lost all hope in "Love". I had no expectations of finding let alone allowing myself to try loving someone again. To love means to learn to trust that someone. Which I couldn't do. Not after going through all that pain.

I surprise myself or maybe its "A" that surprised me. People who have met him see a guy thats nice and quiet. But only myself really know the person he is. He is not as quiet as you think he is. He is quiet when he listens to me. He lends his advice when he knows I need it. He is unobtrusive. He walked with me when I wasn't interested. He was just there quietly and patiently worming his way into my heart. Mmm, actually let me take that back. Was he really patient?? Dropping hints all the time. Haha. Well anyways, he was a good companion and one that made me feel comfortable. I felt I could be myself with him. There was no need for pretensions. He on the other hand, proved to me slowly that I could place my trust in Him. Through his actions and silence. I am amazed by his generosity at times. To my family, my friends and even to me. I am happy I took that chance with him. Instead of allowing myself to sink deeper into that trap I laid for myself.

Now what I need to do is to somehow find a way back to Church. I have not lost God but have lost the battle in staying with a parish. All I can say is that people complex things. And I somehow just don't wanna handle it. That is the thing that bothers me most. Other than that, I am pleasantly happy.

Update

Office Politics. Its everywhere I suppose. No matter where you go, it exists. There's loads of it at my work place. I am quite sick of it. Its tremendously silly.

People talking about each other. Nit picking constantly. It is most annoying. I am lucky I am situated behind and away from most other people. Therefore, I can concentrate on my work. Its a lot of paperwork each day but I do enjoy it. The day passes by so quickly cause I have my hands full. The week just fly by too. Before I know it, its Friday again. I just got confirmed too. Its been three months already. That's super fast. I feel like I have been here for ages. I have learnt so much about the industry. Its pretty interesting. ;-)

Other than the politics, I like working here. Am looking forward to the short holiday in Vietnam. Am pretty excited to go back. Especially to Dalat. Am going to Ho Chi Minh and Dalat. "A" and his friend + girlfriend is going too. I remember the lovely weather and scenery in Dalat. So nice!

Will end off here as I am pretty tired out by the day at work. Gotta work tomorrow too. Have been working consecutively 3 Saturdays. Can't wait for my Saturday off. Exhausted!